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Jun 16 2018, 02:19 PM
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Ji-Ho had to say, things at Idol O'Clock had gotten a lot less hectic in the past few months. Everything had almost settled to normal - I mean, if you disregarded the ST*R episode, which became one of their highest-rated of all time and was a complete trainwreck for obvious reasons. Ji-Ho preferred to think of it as a glowing showcase of his love for Nagito, but it wasn't like anyone ever gave him the benefit of the doubt with that. <p>

This week was going to be a fun week - they had some 8ctagon members coming through to do fun games, they had one of their usual rotating VCB members, some BOSS dance crew, all kinds of great, easygoing guests. It was a lot easier to plan for those guests than the high-profile sorts. You didn't want to go offending Sealight in any way, lest you lose access to Delilah; even if Won was up for a drinking game, painting people in that kind of light might lose their show a lot of potential revenue and guests if the wrong person complained. CM, you could be a bit looser with their guests. The more outrageous someone was, the more CM they seemed.<p>

And BOSS just wanted to be at the top, so variety was variety in their eyes.<p>

Ji-Ho sat outside the Eighty7 Studios, working on some questions to ask Taedae about the massive pillow fort promotion, one of Ji-Ho's favorite promotions for a K-pop group in a long time. He was tempted to just ask all about the pillow fort and not ask a single thing about the music - it would definitely be funny and unusual! But they had to play games and such too. The light summer breeze, coming through after a dismal rainy season, played with his fluffed-up hair. He hadn't had a chance to style it, but Nagito said it looked perfect before he went to work. Ji-Ho blushed at the thought. His future husband, kissing his nose and telling him he looked <i>perfect</i>.
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Ji-Ho was so excited to have his own little section of the pillow fort. He knew he shouldn't be excited for a pillow fort, especially not a promotional gimmick one for a band that wasn't ST*R, but... pillow forts! He read up on these things, and had determined that a pillow fort was a childhood activity he never got the chance to enjoy. He managed to carve out a little space of the now rapidly-expanding space all across the three agencies in Seoul, and now... now he and Nagito could live out their wildest fantasies, surrounded by blankets, wearing their best nightclothes... it was like they were in bed all day! Ji-Ho was tickled by this whole thing.<p>

His black and green pajamas blended into the dark blue comforter that he and Nagito were surrounded by, and he pulled his fiance as close to him as possible for the multipleth time that evening. Nagito was such a delightful man, and every day since their quick proposal had been a dream. They'd managed to send each other multiple selfies every day, even when they both had their promotional duties; they took the time to go to ring shops and they both had the most beautiful, most fitting engagement rings, binding them to each other; they disappeared for hours and pissed off handlers; Nagito was staying at Ji-Ho's house! <p>

Ji-Ho cuddled close to Nagito, kissing his cheek as he blushed. <b>"Do you think that it's possible to get an actual house like this?"</b> Because they had to move out of that crappy apartment of his! It wasn't suitable enough for someone of Nagito's stature and beauty, not to mention that the apartment was part of a different time of Ji-Ho's life. He'd raised his daughter there, but he spent the last near-decade of his life alone, being a massive slob, collecting photocards like a pervert... he was to be a married man now. His new husband deserved his own home, his own space to make their own memories. It was like starting all over.<p>

Speaking of which, Ji-Ho realized he should probably tell Tae-hee soon about the engagement. Well. When he had time. When he wasn't wrapped around this beautiful singer's finger. <b>"Because a quilt house would be so badass."</b>
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Ji-Ho Won thought that, maybe after everything had come out about Nagito being his partner, Nagito being gay, him being bisexual, them being perpetual shock-value-providing public lovers on stage, his work to help Haena, after <i>all that</i>, maybe his work would find him independent and responsible enough to not have to interview people before his show anymore to determine their suitability. Seriously, the "issue" was pinpointed - Ji-Ho was really fucking attracted to Nagito Komaeda. He wasn't likely to cause more gay scandals as long as the dark-haired Japanese nymph wasn't near him. (And if he was, well, that was the company's damn fault. They were too in love with each other to turn off that chemistry well!) He was <i>not</i> attracted to Kiha Moon, the very serious actor who tended to play one singular type in his films.<p>

Though Ji-Ho bristled at the idea of having to interview anyone at all anymore, he did think that, if his company wanted him to interview anyone, Kiha might be a good choice. He was somewhat hard to get a read on - cracking him open would be an interesting experiment, but he had the kind of temperament and reputation that could make that a real disaster. Ji-Ho, admittedly, had never seen a work of Kiha's that didn't also involve his partner Yuna. They fed off of each other in a way that made Ji-Ho a bit... uneasy, but maybe that was just chemistry for the camera. Maybe.<p>

He'd planned this coffee shop meeting to get a better read on the actor. Ji-Ho had been in a bit of a crazed haze lately, what with everything that happened to Haena and making sure that everyone he knew at CM was okay, and then Nagito doing some outpatient treatment for his anxiety. He really needed friends his own age, firstly, but that was a lot of stress to take on. Dan Berman didn't make his life any easier, either, as the man went into a hyperkinetic search mode in both instances that really just gave Ji-Ho a massive migraine every time he saw Dan's name pop up on his cell phone. Taking a sip of his latte, he waited for the striking man to make his appearance. Ji-Ho had a feeling, based on what little he knew, that Kiha would keep him waiting somehow.<p>

He pulled out his phone and started texting silly emojis to Nagito to pass the time.
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I've been informed that my other half may have made you worried basket-cases. Please feel free to ask me honest, normal questions about Nagito deciding to check himself into a non-intensive-care, therapeutic hospital. He might have left that bit out. I don't know. He has a tendency to... you know. Be him. Think everyone will be mad at him for wanting to get better.

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Feb 3 2018, 04:49 PM
cw - kidnapping plot, childhood physical and verbal abuse, sex work, emotional breakdowns.

((This is a chat log that Penny and I did for Naho in the immediate aftermath of the Haebitna kidnapping. So there's not really anything new going to be happening here, but we wanted to share it because it does involve a very special milestone for them.))

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Lars - Last Wednesday at 8:21 PM<br>
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Ji-Ho didn't want to admit it, especially not with everyone's world spinning out of control, but he was deathly worried for Nagito.<p>

He worried for his daughter, yes, but Sealight was not CM. CM was lax, it was fun, it was the lighthearted permissive agency - and now its golden girl had vanished, violently kidnapped. Jiho barely slept in the two days that had passed since, worried about so many people. The moment Nagito could, he arrived.<p>

Jiho didn't know what to do. Nagito and him were both so raw, bundles of nerve endings, and all Jiho did was put some soup on the stove, watching it, the air tense. Jiho didn't know how to say how afraid he was. He hadn't been this afraid in a long time.<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 8:31 PM<br>
Nagito honestly wasn't sure what to feel right now. He'd been feeling so much so intensely for the past week that this - the absense of the need to physically tear at himself or constantly stop to catch his breath - felt like he wasn't feeling a thing at all. He knew that was wrong. He was feeling something he hadn't felt in a while, he knew - relief. Being here, as scared as he knew Ji-Ho was and he was as well, was a relief. He couldn't wait for the moment he could just sink into his arms and not have to get up for a while - the fact it hadn't happened just yet let him know how freaked out his boyfriend was.<p>

He stood quietly in the doorway, leaning against it and biting his lips, watching him from afar. "...It's cold," he admitted, pulling down his sleeves. Then, the million-dollar question - "Are you feeling okay?"<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 8:38 PM<br>
Jiho nodded, a faint smile playing along his lips. "The heater will kick in soon, my love." His words serrated the edges of his heart, blood spilling inside of him. His love was here, but...<p>

"Are you feeling okay?" <p>

The soup began to bubble. Jiho stared at it, his soft smile disappearing. "No." He paused. "I feel better with you here. I..." He stirred the soup a bit. It smelled lovely, tomato bisque. "I don't want to scare you..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 8:41 PM<br>
Nagito tried to smile at the words - he knew he was trying. But this whole thing was so.... tense. How could it not be? Everyone was tense. No one knew what to do. This was his first day released from CM, with anyone but his bandmates and brother and father. And this was affecting so much more than just CM. Nagito moved closer tentatively, to the counter close by him. Maybe closeness could help. That was practically all that did back at the dorms. "...You won't," he insisted. "Nothing you could say could scare me. It's you."<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 8:49 PM<br>
Jiho wanted to believe Nagito, he thought as he tasted a bit of the soup. Odd, almost comical thoughts jutted into his brain, desperately trying to keep him from thinking about what he feared - he couldn't remember the last time he'd stayed dressed this long around Nagito. This soup wasn't bad, for being made by a terrible cook.<p>

But he couldn't pretend around Nagito. He frowned before pinching the bridge of his nose. "...I've..." He breathed shakily. "I've never been kidnapped. But being with my father was... almost like that. And I know what he did to me, and..." He leaned dangerously close to the soup in his distress, haphazardly thumbing at the gas nozzle to turn off the flames. "...and..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 8:53 PM<br>
Nagito watched him, taking in every little detail he could - the way his adam's apple bobbed, the shadow of his glasses across his brow. He couldn't help but nearly let out a sigh before Ji-Ho began to speak.<p>

His heart seized up. He wasn't sure what he was feeling worse - the fear for Hae, or the disgust and empathy for Ji-Ho. "...It's terrible. I know, you... you don't have to say, if you don't want to." He mirrored his frown, looking to the soup, hand gently moving to his boyfriend's arm to gain some ginger contact.<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 9:00 PM<br>
Jiho immediately clung to Nagito, oddly soundless as whirled around and hugged Nagito tightly, his hands softly palming the man's shoulderblades. He buried his face into Nagito's neck, shaking as if crying with nothing coming out.<p>

"It's... it's bad enough with Haebitna gone..." He murmured. "...She... she's not going to come back the same..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 9:03 PM<br>
Nagito let out a breath he didn't know he was holding, wrapping his arms around his waist to press him close to him, pressing a kiss to his temple. He wished he could stop him from shaking. "...I know. I'm trying to hold out hope for us all.... it's... difficult."<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 9:05 PM<br>
"You're so strong..." Jiho admitted in a small voice, shivering at the kiss. "...I... I don't want to make you afraid... but I want... I'm so worried... for her..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 9:07 PM<br>
Nagito tried to hide his grimace, pulling him tighter to him. "We all are... you have a good reason to, okay?..." He was quiet a moment, before something washed over him. "You're safe now. Right? And... she will be. Soon. We're going to make sure of it, all of us. We're all working together..."<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 9:13 PM<br>
"Nagito, you're in love with a broken man," Jiho said, voice wavering. His hands grew a bit tighter against Nagito's back, his chest tightening. "...I want her to be safe..." He finally cracked, letting out an odd hiss of air before letting out a racking sob, his knees almost buckling into Nagito.<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 9:15 PM<br>
Nagito locked his knees, breath stopping again as he pulled Ji-Ho tighter. His hands rubbed gently but vigorously at his back, hoping desperately to be some form of soothing. "...She will be..." He tried to say, but his voice was quiet. "...You're okay. Right now... you're okay..."<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 9:23 PM<br>
Jiho never felt comfortable crying. He remembered and felt, even years later, the kind of pain crying brought. But the pain never came, his body remained taut and unharmed. Nagito pulled him close, and he didn't shy away from the touch, Nagito's warmth betraying the cold he said to feel. Jiho focused on his words, his golden tongue - he was okay, right now, he was okay.<p>

"I... I..." Jiho couldn't stop himself from continuing to cry in between words. "I... I want... I need... I don't know..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 9:27 PM<br>
Nagito kept his eyes tightly shut, unsure what he was pulling back as he pulled Ji-Ho tighter to him. "I know- it's okay... do you want to sit right now-?"<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 9:29 PM<br>
Jiho pulled away just to nod. His eyes were red, face splotchy and strained, unused to tears. He almost turned to get the soup, but realized he could barely see straight and Nagito didn't seem to want it anyways. He trudged to his bedroom, the only place he felt comfortable being, before sinking back into their bed ans
and almost starting to cry all over again. He thought of it as their bed.<p>

He needed to tell Nagito about his past in more than the oblique.<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 9:33 PM<br>


Nagito let him go despite his reluctance, quickly turning off the stove and following him to the bedroom. He hesitated, then sat down on the foot of the bed, reaching to rest a hand on Ji-Ho worriedly. "Do you want me to get you some water? In case...?"<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 9:40 PM<br>

Jiho only squeaked out a little sob in response, hand clamping to Nagito's. He ran his other hand through his hair. He had to get this out. He couldn't let Nagito suffer through this without knowing why, and everything threatened to burst out of every pore anyways...<p>

"...My father owned an agency," Jiho began. "Trot artists. He was a legendary mismanager. But... he blamed me for my mom dying in childbirth. And..." He blinked back some warm tears, hand tensing on Nagito's. "...it felt an awful lot like being kidnapped sometimes. The weeks I wasn't allowed to eat. The constant insults. The ones where one wrong step meant being beaten with a pole until it broke." He frowned deeply, still crying but in a steadier manner. "...the times I ended up locked in my dormitory for days..." Maybe he had been kidnapped.<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 9:45 PM<br>

Nagito let his other hand rest over Ji-Ho's hand as it clamped onto his - the kind of desperate, needing touch he understood well. He scooted closer, hopeing he judged right and that he needed the closeness as much as he did.<p>

Then Ji-Ho started tellling him about his past.<p>

Nagito felt his stomach turn. He shifted his hand, trying to hold his like a lifeline. "You're...." He couldn't figure out what to say. Nothing felt appropriate. "...I never knew..."<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 9:51 PM<br>

Nagito was speechless, just from that little bit of sharing. Jiho had so many years' worth of stories, details he remembered like they were yesterday, dredged up by the fear that someone out there hated Haena as much as his father hated him. "...the worst part is, he died leaving me with all of his and my debt after... all that. A divorced skill-less twenty year old who never debuted." He hesitated a moment but continued. "I was a prostitute for years to feed my daughter. I felt more degraded by my father than I did fucking strangers." His head lolled back again, the tears finally subsiding. "I... I could tell you so much. But... that doesn't help. I fear what I know and if Haena's kidnapper hates her half as much as my dad hated me, she'll probably die."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 9:57 PM<br>


Ji-Ho was so much deeper and so much further hurt than Nagito had ever feared. Situations like his were things he'd been lucky enough to never experience, but each word sent a pang shooting through his chest. He kept himself quiet, pulling up Ji-Ho's hand to kiss it gently as he saw the tears starting to fade away. "...It's scary. You... you have a reason to be scared. Plenty of reasons. I understand..." He struggled a moment- "-So much more now... I... it's awful." He finally let himself pause, trying to take it all in and resting on thinking about Haebitna again. He felt the turmoil rising all over again, and shoved it down with a gulp. "I know why you think that. But.... I have to try to think it's better. For all of our sakes." What could he do? "...I know you're scared. If there's anything I can do..."<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 10:00 PM<br>
Nagito was Grace. Everything about him was the biblical definition of Grace, his movements, the way his kiss balmed over his cracking soul, his soft words, an ocean of sweet serenity. Jiho couldn't lean up. <p>

"...I'm scared for her." He stared at Nagito for a long while, taking in everything that made him so beautiful. "I'm scared for you. I can't... I can't lose you." His frown pulled tight, and the tears stayed away. "...please don't leave me."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 10:03 PM<br>
Nagito couldn't help but dance around Ji-Ho's features, waiting a moment to finally look to his eyes until he could be sure he could be steady for him. He didn't want to ruin him, or hurt him, or... there were plenty of things he could think about. He frowned. "I won't," he agreed. "How could I...?"<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 10:06 PM<br>
Jiho gently tugged on his arm. "Stay with me." He wasn't fragile. Jiho knew he was broken and shattered but all those pieces were glued and plastered together into something hard and difficult to get through. Nagito was that needle, constantly piercing through him, exposing him for the scared lovesick boy he was. "Please, just..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 10:09 PM<br>
That reached him. He moved closer, laying down and wrapping his arms around hm. "I'll stay. As long as you need me to."<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 10:11 PM<br>
Nagito's arms felt like a cool breeze against chapped skin. Jiho smiled wearily, cheeks still stained with tears, reciprocating the hug and allowing himself to let out a scared breath. "...I was so scared to... to talk, I was afraid I'd make you even more worried..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 10:14 PM<br>
Nagito shook his head. "No, I'm... I'm good at setting it aside. You need me, and...." He could actually do something about it. "You're importnt to me..."<p>
Lars - Last Wednesday at 10:16 PM<br>
"I love you," Jiho told him softly. "I need you so much. I... I want to be everything for you, I'm sorry I couldn't reassure you now..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Wednesday at 10:17 PM<br>
"It's okay." He insisted. "I'm okay... I love you." He paused. "Are you... do you feel better? Talking about it?"<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 6:15 AM<br>
Jiho curled in tighter to Nagito, craving some of that warmth. "...I... a little, yeah. I don't... I don't really ever talk about what happened. I can't, most of the time." He settled his head atop Nagito's. "It's horrible but I've been so afraid for you... if I lost you..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 6:51 AM<br>
Nagito clutched him flush to his body, arms wrapping tighter. He didn't want to let go. "No but... I understand why..."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 7:33 AM<br>
They were locked into each other, breath syncing up and bodies melting together in a mist of heat. "It's selfish. I know it is. But I feel like there's no me without you now."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 7:37 AM<br>
"...Really?" He asked, a bit surprised. Helet his eyes close, matching up to his boyfriend and becoming aware that the crying had stopped. "I... I thought it was just me, so I just.... sort of swept it aside..."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 7:39 AM<br>
"Don't sweep your feelings aside." Jiho was gentle in his words, a tinge of exhaustion coloring his tone. He was wrung out. "I... I love your mystery but I love when I'm allowed into your world even more."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 7:44 AM<br>
Nagito let his hand run down Ji-Ho's arm, moving back to his shoulder and chest after the softness. "...I was afraid I'd push you away," He admitted.<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 7:45 AM<br>
"...I was afraid of the same," Jiho said quietly. "I... I know I'm broken but you always look at me like I'm perfect..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 7:48 AM<br>
Nagito understood that - probably better than he could explain right now. "I'm sorry. I know I do that and that it can be intimidating..."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 7:51 AM<br>
"...I just was afraid that you'd hate me the second you realized what I am."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 3:09 PM<br>
"...What you are?"<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 7:57 PM<br>
"...I'm defiled." Jiho fell silent for another long moment, his grip on Nagito loosenkng. "I didn't want that on you. You've already dealt with so much, without having my dark spots all over you."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 8:00 PM<br>
Nagito frowned, reaching the same grimace as before. "You're not. Nothing's going to change..."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 8:03 PM<br>


Jiho grew quiet before gently kissing Nagito's forehead. "...I'm so blessed to have someone like you." He grew closer again. "I'm used to being discarded..."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 8:04 PM<br>

Nagito felt something in him quiet, and he breathed out, squeezing him tight. "Well I don't want to do that. I love you..."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 8:18 PM<br>
"I love you too." Jiho paused. "I was really afraid when we first started dating. Genuinely. Photocards are easy to please. A real person... one who idolized me the way you do... I was so afraid that one little wrong step would make it all fall apart." Like with Kangsoo.<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 8:22 PM<br>
"...I was scared, too," he admitted. "It always felt too good to be true, so... I just always thought... that it would just stop. I'd wake up or it would turn out to be a joke or.... something." He wasn't going to say that he still wondered about waking up sometimes - but at least he knew this was real for them both here and now, now.<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 8:30 PM<br>
Jiho wasn't sure how, but they'd both managed to find the only other person on earth who felt like they'd wake up and have lost everything they shared. They were quite a pair. Jiho, for his part, feared openness. He always had. Openness only lead to disaster.<p>

...until now. Sure, he lost a few jobs. But the world didn't end when Nagito and he went public. Sharing the heartbreak and triumph over his disease only brought them closer together. And now this, the disaster of losing Haena and the fear she wouldn't come back... yet they were here. Together. At the edge of madness, pulling each other further and further away from the edge. <p>

"I love you madly and dearly and so intensely, Nagito, I can't imagine ever joking about anything to do with you." He frowned briefly. "Well. Except the aliens."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 8:52 PM<br>
Nagito, conversely, had the same fears of being left behind - but for him, it wasn't anything that he had any real control over. These things seemed to just happen to him - purely passive occurences. He was never able to take the reins... which was probably the real fear he had. That no matter how tightly he clung to him, something would always get in the way.<p>

Nagito gave a slight laugh, burying his face into Ji-Ho's hair. "I know that. But.... anything could happen. I mean- I knew you were being genuine, but..."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 8:55 PM<br>
"Not even death will stop me now," Jiho impressed upon Nagito seriously, blushing at the intimate contact. "Anything could happen, yes. But even if that separates us, I will never stop loving you."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 8:58 PM<br>
Nagito's eyes opened at the stern words, gawking at him. "...I don't tihnk I can stop loving you, either..."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 8:59 PM<br>
"...then don't."<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 8:59 PM<br>
"...I won't. If that's what you want."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 9:01 PM<br>
"No, Nagito," Jiho said gently, nuzzling into him. "No. What do you want?"<p>
Pendulumwriter - Last Thursday at 9:03 PM<bt>
Nagito was quiet, still staring, but his gaze softened and he started breathing again. "...I want to stay like this. Just... with you. For as long as I ever can."<p>
Lars - Last Thursday at 9:06 PM<br>
Jiho smiled at him, sweetly, his heart threatening to burst. Softly, so as not to ruin the mood, he leaned in to Nagito and kissed him gently, lips barely touching, face burning up from the intimacy.<p>

"Then that's what we'll do. Forever."
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